What's fair about this?!

So for those of you that keep up with my blog or know my situation, you may recall that I interviewed for a pretty good teaching position in Nagoya last month, but didn't get it.

The combination of not getting that position, and an overwhelming lack of good job prospects and tons of obstacles made me begin to consider going home to the states and going back into student affairs. The more I thought about it, the more it seemed like a good idea, and the more I tried to talk myself out of even wanting to stay here.

So, I began a full fledged job search for positions back home, and am really excited about several of them. I sent out my applications and contacted my references, and now I am just waiting for the first round phone interview emails to start coming, hopefully this week (knock on wood).
Great right?

Well, because life seems to be testing me these days, I received an email just a little while ago from the hiring officer at the job that I didn't get here in Nagoya telling me that they have another vacancy and would like to offer me the position!

I'm not sure how I feel about this. On the one hand, I really do like living here and I was stoked to accept the position a few weeks ago if I was offered it. But on the other hand, I didn't get it, and partly because of that, I've begun planning to go home in late Dec./Jan. and am totally focused on getting a job there.

I feel totally lost. No matter what I do, my current job ends soon and I need to take some job somewhere. If I take this job in Nagoya, I'm opting out of all the great jobs I applied for back home, and am setting myself up to do this big (and tiring) job search all over again in the spring.

If I turn down the job, I may or may not get offered a position back home. And even if I do get offered a position, because it is mid-year and there are not that many positions posted, I may be forced to end up in a place I don't really want.

Grrrr... I seriously am totally lost here. Most people go abroad to find themselves. But all I've ended up doing is making myself really confused. And the worst part is that I have nobody to blame but myself. I'm the one that decided to come here. I chose my awful company. And I chose to quit. It's totally all my doing. I don't regret it, but I do need to own it.

At this point, I just need somebody to tell me what to do. I'm tired.